Coming up in late February 2015 Matthew Suplee, Alison Jean Cole and I have put together an interdisciplinary event around the idea of the known, and the unknown as we know it, called Spaceness

Spaceness 2015 will take place at the Sou’wester Lodge in Seaview, Washington from February 27th to March 1st 2015. The event is an intimate retreat that features an assemblage of talent sharing their understanding of space and existence.

As an exercise for this exhibition I put together a series of digital collages exploring my childhood memories of haunting films and stories that stayed with me personally for years beyond my having seen or heard any reference to them.  I took film stills from youtube versions of many of the obscure titles and married them together with images from Pinterest of phenomena.  They are all given the title "childhood film stills mixed with pinterest's idea of the otherworldly no. 1-30."

Furthermore, I will be doing a performance on the beach pertaining to these memories, bodily recalling a disturbing film moment set on a beach, and related to the foregin bodies that was ashore housing treasure such as ambergris and oysters.


the pheromone constellation: a limited edition of recycled silk garments that have been shibori dyed. natural dyes are are more likely to fade over time, so wash sparingly. 

 the gold stamp was inspired by the chemical structure for musk and civet, and their resemblance to a constellation.  wearing one of these garments makes you a part of a very rare group of stars.

  my naturally dyed shibori collection is at haunt this week, and will be at the @bisashop pop-up next weekend 


samples are for sale now online


playing around with product placement


i have been moving for about a month now, and haven't been keeping up with much except instagram (@julia_barbee), and my willamettefalls residency (@willamettefalls), but i thought i'd do a little update here anyways.

i have a piece in an online exhibition with black box gallery here

it kind of makes me laugh because they altered my title from #kitchensinkstilllife

it's a photo from my holy matrimony series. i'm planning on a perfume release of the same name in the spring. perhaps with a publication to go along with it.

i'm also working on revamping my etsy shop, i redid the banner tonight, and will shoot some new perfume images soon as well.


i remember seeing pickled eggs at joe jost in long beach and thinking they looked disgusting. my how i was wrong. 

i have had some pickled in jalepeno juice, and some in beet juice, and i wanted to do some from scratch, but i didn't have time. 

and i didn't have either of those things. so i used pickled pepperoncini from the fridge instead

i adapted the recipe from a number of different ones i was reading, and just kind of made it up as i went.
spicy mustard and pepperoncini pickled eggs deviled!

2 cups white vinegar
the juice from a 32 oz jar of pepperoncini (reserve pepperoncini)
3 tablespoons yellow mustard
1 cup sugar
2 teaspoons celery seed
1 teaspoon mustard seed
6 whole cloves
2 tablespoons turmeric

1/2 onion sliced thin
8 hard boiled eggs, peeled
  1. Bring the brine ingredients to a boil, then simmer 10 minutes whisking
  2. Put onion, pepperoncini and eggs layered back into the pepperoncini jar (you'll have leftover peppers)
  3. Pour brine over top
  4. Let cool, and put in fridge
Set for 24 hours (although i didn't have that long before my party, so i did about 4, they were still great)
deviled spicy pickled eggs
yolks from pickled eggs that have been cut in half
enough mayo to make a wet mixture
garlic powder to your liking
salt & pepper to taste
cut up chives
scoop filling back into the whites on a plate, sprinkle with paprika and chives. serve and they will be gone in minutes!


i was obsessed with the chocolate dollar cookie recipe from the cookie lovers cookie cookbook that i had as a child, and tried altering the recipe to make it gluten free, well, at least wheat free...success!

Chocolate Dollars

1/2 cup butter
1 cup sugar
1 egg
1 teaspoon vanilla (I use more)
3/4 cup brown rice flower
1/2 cup tapioca flour
1/2 cup potato starch
1/3 cup unsweetened powdered cocoa
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon baking soda

for topping: 
1 tablespoon sugar
sprinkling of sea salt

mix all ingredients. 
the recipe calls for refrigerating the dough, i skip that because i'm too impatient. i just make balls, and press them down, top with some sugar, and this time i tried a little sea salt since the recipe doesn't include salt, and i think it's always nice with dark chocolate. it made a big, delicious difference. 

bake at 325 degrees for 8-10 minutes. they're pretty squishy out of the oven, i often just eat the first one with a spoon!
i searched for years for this cookie cookbook that i used to use as a child, i got it from scholastic news. many thanks to prudence younger for inspiring this recipe!



I have got to say I felt your eyes on me ... It's been a long time since someone got caught looking at me, like you were looking at me...You smell my Narciso Rodriguez cologne which is the sense tied most closely to human memory. Now you remember how it feels...

Ryan you are a SuperStud

Every time I smell something sweet I think of you. Even as they years go I am sure you will be there in my quite moments of reflection. I wish that I could just kiss you once, just one passionate kiss and I will treasure it forever. 

Wistful Words for My Sinner

I wore the gardenia body lotion to the gym today. As I worked out, the heat of my body released the scent of gardenia. The smell filled my senses and I could not stop my thoughts from turning to you.  I need to hear your voice so that I know and you know we are not alone in this Void. 



Fragrance of the World - m4w - 28

I can only imagine your touch
your soft skin
your lips delicately
brushing my canvas
your nose touching my nose
the smell of your hair
the taste of your neck.
Kissing the fleshy parts of your fingers
dancing my hands in a slow waltz
across your breasts and down
to where your body curves
like a wine glass.
Seeing you with more than my eyes
touching you with more than my body.
Cheeks like flowers,
shortness of breath,
the world discarded.
Of all the waves in the ocean,
I recognize only your wave
as hand in hand our bodies collide
like two champagne flutes
in a toast to sparkling rapture.
And afterwards I'll hold you
like a rare musical instrument,
listening to only the sound of you
as you inhale and exhale
the fragrance of the world 

If I was granted a wish to do anything for a day... - m4w

...it would be to spend that entire day with you at Disneyland again. But, just me and you this time. Just to spend the entire day, playing, having fun and spending it with each other at a magical place. <3 section="">
I like vintage and worn decor, because they remind me of all the decor at dl. I love the smell of chlorine, because they remind me of the water rides there. I like the smell of burning popcorn, peanuts, candies, again because they remind me of there. The smell of stinky horses.. the smell of mechanical machines..they all remind me of dl... Among many other things. You truly love that place like no one else I know. Makes me love you even more.

to the girl that waved at my at carols jrs no lacster by market st - m4w

hope u see this and contat me i was in a blue ranger i regret not stoping and saying hi and see if i could get ru number hope u see this and give me a scent chance


u don't know what your mssing.... - 40 (clackamas)


hi girls... sooo if u like a bit kink...a very sexy smooth man, shaves... all over... and professional, tan. soooo ooo smooth to touch and adore... and i will return the feeling... girls i am not bias to color or size... cuz... love and emotion comes in all flavors, and a women that has chemistry with her man is really all that matters.... yes? so.... if sexy 6 2 200 lbs and soooo soft and knows about the fem side about himself and what does that mean...? well it means he knows how to ..... t o u c h a women and make her feel so special... her sexual desires will peak and she will become a soft doll in my arms and while i hold u, u will fall for me to let me touch u, and u won't be able to say no..... I promise, I will send your mind into a place, you have never been before,.... and u wonder how can i do this.... well because, i know how a womens mind and sexuality works...its just a perfect place,... the beauty of a women, no matter her size the concept is the same... trust me...u will be pleased no matter what size u are.... just sorry but 18 is all can handle......... I do like bigger, but... O....that is sexy too.... its just the thought of being sexy for both of us.... I love taking a hot bubble bath and listening to some nice muxic and drinking a glass of wine... soooo iam getting tired and going to bed, and actually going to think of a sweet curvey, nice size brested women, who is sweet all over,wearing perfume and smelling so sweet, as i will .... again size is not important as long as u are sweet in you flat spot and high maintance.... i love make up and alot.... cuz it just shows me u , u take pride in your look, and that is sooooo sexy.... plz reply... any age is fine.. i am again young in apperance,... I won't tell u my age,because its not important, what matters is chem and care for each other... ad we can figure out the rest late, if the chem is right.... love to you, and merry christmas to u, I promise i will give u all u want... love to who ever u are...


Dreaming about you - m4w (Portland)


I dreamed of you last night. You were beautiful and perfect as always. I miss your face and looking into your eyes. I miss your bizarre personality and crazy beliefs. If I could put my face in your neck and smell you and take you in to hold you close and feel your lips on mine.

Oddly Specific - 29 (SW PDX)


It is Friday night around 9 o'clock and I just got home from my work holiday party. I am filled with cheesecake, pizza and cinnamon whiskey. I just feel like putting on some sweatpants and falling asleep in front of the television. Or posting on Craigslist and seeing what cute girl is out there that happens to like guys who are boyishly charming with a dash of handsomeness and who smell very, very good...

Milky Way is UNSTOPPABLE! - m4w (PDX)


and so you called my bluff then cancelled your email account.

i don't know which one more qualifies you for that spanking...

but if you'd like to pause (not stop) and smell the roses and lilacs...

want to meet a nice girl - 30 (vancouver)


I've been single for the past two years and now I miss the smell of a woman on my clothes,getting a text in the morning saying sweet things. Please be into video games somewhat.

Something dark - 99 (PDX)


" Your torments call us like dogs in the night. And we do feed, and feed well. To stuff ourselves on other people's torments. And butter our plain bread with delicious pain... Funerals, marriages, lost loves, lonely beds " that is our diet. We suck that misery and find it sweet. We can smell the young ulcerating to be men a thousand miles off. And hear a middle-aged fool like yourself groaning with midnight despairs from halfway round the world. "

Christmas Break!! - 28 (The West Side)


I am 28, charming as I am handsome - obviously - and I smell very, very good. I have the musical taste of a 13 year old girl circa 1999 and nice legs. It is true. Summer is a good time for me. 

Lets go see The Hobbit tonight! - 40 (Portland)


I want to go see the Hobbit tonight. You're cute, maybe a LOTR nerd, maybe a huge fan of the books or the other movies. Maybe you just have a thing for Short men with hairy feet.... I'm not going to judge you. I'm tall with the hardly any hair on my feet and an all around nice guy. Be single, cute, funny, fun, smell nice and be a sweet person who is willing to use her large purse to Sherpa my snacks into the theater.


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My question is this: What causes that smell? Sort of sage-like but not exactly.
Does anyone know what is actually making that scent????

I think it is God.

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mainly the ''Creosote Bush'' that covers the southwest deserts i.e. the Sonoran, Mohave and the Chihuahuan here in New Mexico.. These plants are very moisture depedant for a desert plant so they have the longest roots of any up to 80 feet to get to water. Secondly they have pores all over them to get mousture so they really open up after any rain to absorbe it hence the awsome smell it produces. Whenever i go home to Alamo to visit as soon as i get to Carrizozo and turn south on U.S.54 even without rain the smell of fresh rain is strong do to so many Creosotes there so i'll roll down my window and enjoy for about 15 min or so.

You can see them mixed amongst the cacti in this picture.

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We had more rain here overnight, and waking up to that smell is great. Then I start the coffee to mix with it :-)

The smell of the desert at night is so mind blowing. It is like this sweet dusty earthy lushy wonderous hard to describe smell. I just want to roll around in its sensuous scent!

Ahhhh, creosote and sage...

someone I know is going to send a box of arizona through the mail so I can squirt it with a mister and dream of AZ here in California. . . what a heavenly smell

There is Nothing like the smell of the Sonoran Desert when it rains, specially during the monsoons in the summer. The smell of wet sage combined with the thunder & lightening and POURing rain. I love to just head west out Ajo Hwy and take it all in!

There've been times when I've wanted a monsoon storm more than the weather does, so I put some dried Creosote I have (I do a lot of herbal stuff) in a bowl and take a hot shower. Does the trick. For extra effects, have some one flick the light switch a few times :)